I have so many different things on my mind. Mixed emotions. Feeling a bit of sadness, loneliness and some anger. Not too sure how to process all of it. So here is where I find myself. Deep breaths as I try to work out all of the words. I am very angry. This time in my life in am finding good spots for shelter with nothing but happy feelings and healthy emotions. Then there comes this drought of unhappy and destructive emotions. And I am in the middle trying to hold myself up. This mixture of mental emotions and physical lack of comfort. How is a person, let alone a woman to balance this out. All I can say to that is hard work. It’s almost like having a 2nd full time (no days off) kind of job. Because no matter what, things have to get dealt with, “now or later”. I am being proactive and positive about it. I’m choosing to have faith in myself. I do know that tomorrow will bring a new day and what I am feeling now shouldn’t matter. Therefore I won’t let it bring me down. It’s just the ever changing dynamics of becoming a better person and woman. Loving and letting go. And that goes for everything and everyone. The bruises don’t stop, they just fade a little faster. People will hurt you, they will fail you, but you cannot give in or give-up on yourself. Just smile and say “fuck-it, shit happens”. The good news is the older you get the easier it becomes to handle things. So thank God I’m not where I was 6 or 7 years ago. I probably wouldn’t be here fighting for my sanity and emotions. These are my emotions, and they belong to me, and I too deserve to be happy.
“I had a conversation with God/
About the many situations I’ve been facing in odds/
Impatient with the ways I’ve been behaving with Time/
TIME, isn’t beside us,/ naw,
High achievers the leaders of what’s inside us were fighters try and defeat us and seek a way to come find us/
Our people are demons who won’t define us/
They’re non believers they beat us leaking from conscience so violence is at its penuchle liquor flow is an option/
And poisons the answer/
Choice in the matter is smoking cancer with broken rolls in the hands of the adolescence demanding the Granted attention/
were the bastards of America Government Victoms/
Quiet back of the class when they Stuck us with Riddling/
Convincing parents just so they can have robotic children/
A pot to piss in wasn’t given were dropping our liquids on documented decision given to Lock in the System/
God Bless America
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